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Heyyyyyyyy you!

I should’ve probably written this ages ago but here we are. kekeke.

I’d still like to document this before I forget which I kind of suspect I might already have lulz. I’ll try anyway.

So, this is the part where it feels like the pregnancy went on forever. Every discomfort just became that much more intense.

The back pain, the groin pain, the pelvic pain, the very fatigue, crampy and exhausted legs at the end of the day. I don’t remember being in this much discomfort with my first pregnancy but at the same time, I did not have the luxury of resting whenever I feel like it this time. I have a 2 year old, still working and also juggling a billion other life admin and personal projects. The world is also not on lockdown anymore so everything basically went back to normal.

When we first found out I was pregnant early May last year, I cried thinking about the life and the body I just got back and now here we go again with the morning sickness and delaying the things I have planned for the year. On hindsight, the timing couldn’t have been better.

This just shows how much I need to trust and rely on God’s timing more. Clearly I have no idea what I am talking about. If I am already experiencing so much pain now, imagine how much worse it’d be as I get older and how much it’ll affect me mentally and emotionally too considering we know we want more than just 1 child.

So there’s that and at 36 weeks I have decided that I will go on VBAC if I go on spontaneous labour and elective c-section if I have to be induced coz ya girl ain’t gonna go through induction and an emergency c-section alllll over again. Once is more than enough to traumatise me.

Considering how I was feeling and literally how heavy I was and how very low my bump got early December 2023, I was praying that bubs would at least wait till my parents-in-law are here to be with Freya while I am delivering.

Bubs listened but she also did more than I’d hoped for and that was staying inside longer than we’d like that we decided to just go with elective c-section.

I managed to squeeze in time to go cherry picking, trout and salmon fishing, walking around shopping centres and eat to my heart content outside.

We did that all within the last week before my surgery. I was already in so much pain at this point but staying home and resting sounds much more painful to me. Yes, I don’t like staying around doing nothing and this is the exact reason why I struggle during postpartum so much. It forces me to not do anything but rest and recover and I know how crucial it is as it shapes the rest of my life. So, this is the only time I’d bite the bullet for the sake of my wellbeing and my family.

You have no idea how happy I was closer to my due date knowing all the heaviness will be gone soon and I will be on the road to recovery. The quicker the better and the quicker I can have my mobility back.

There’s really not much else I could share apart from all the pain and each time it gets intense, I can only pray to Allah that may He trade all these pains by blessing us with a righteous child. Aamiin Ya Rabbal Aalamiiin.